If you ask me about my feelings in 2020, I will tell you this. It was the last year of my university life as a Statistics student, and I had started working on my thesis. All was well until the day right after I celebrated my friends’ graduation; everything changed all of a sudden. All lecture activity was cancelled because all of it had been switched to online classes, and I had to go back to my hometown.
From, “okay, I’m going to meet my supervisor to consult about this method and discuss this topic with my friends” to, “I will ask my friend and my supervisor about this topic through WhatsApp.” I thought it would be easy for me. However, in reality, it wasn’t. I had a difficult time completing my thesis because the situation had left me unmotivated to do so. I had no courage to check even my chat notifications because I thought my friends would ask me about my thesis. I had started thinking that I couldn’t make it and that I would not be able to graduate this year.
Then, BTS gave their commencement speech and performed in “Dear Class of 2020” — they made me so proud. It was a coincidence for me because I was supposed to graduate in 2020 as well. Jungkook reminisced about his graduation day and how he celebrated it with his hyungs. Seokjin told us, “We each have our own pace.” The thing we should do is go with the flow, don’t rush anything, and remember to take a deep breath. Yoongi advised us to let go of what we can’t control and focus on what we can change. As Jimin said, if we have a hard time, remember that we have someone in Seoul, Korea, who understands us. We can follow Hobi’s chant, “I can do it. You got it. I can do it well. I can do it better than anybody.” Taehyung said he will wait for us to tell them our own story. Last but not least, Namjoon reassured us: “Our future will bloom to something much bigger and magnificent”. When I watched it, I was left speechless. Their speech was something I could totally relate to. After I watched it, I realized, “This situation is something I can’t control. Why should I give up?” Because of them, I still had hope that I could do it. I wanted to make the people I love proud of me, including them.
And finally, I did it! On October 25, 2020, I graduated. It was too different from the past because I attended my graduation ceremony virtually and celebrated it from home. But still, I was happy. I rewatched BTS’s “Dear Class of 2020” speech after the ceremony, just like I promised myself. It felt like I was at my graduation ceremony and BTS was in front of me, congratulating me, giving me warm and inspirational messages, and entertaining me with their performance.
For me, 2020 is definitely not a good year, but I am still grateful BE-cause at least, in 2020, I have BTS.
Syarifah Nisrina aka Sisin JS is a Statistics graduate who is currently learning Korean (inspired by BTS) as she is planning for graduate school. (Indonesia)
Sisin. (2021). At least I have BTS in 2020. The Rhizomatic Revolution Review , (2). https://ther3journal.com/issue-2/at-least-I-have-BTS-in-2020
Sisin. “At Least I Have BTS in 2020.” The Rhizomatic Revolution Review , no. 2, 2021, https://ther3journal.com/issue-2/at-least-I-have-BTS-in-2020.
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